The Disillusioned Student

[nirinia]

I haven't been posting much lately. Last week was a whirlwind of friends, drinks, coffees and conversations. This week I have been breathing, thinking, walking the dog, jogging occasionally, and coming to terms with my decision.

I am not happy studying literature. It is not challenging enough, it is not interesting enough, and it will not change the world. A few years ago a teacher caught me after a debate (immigration, I was hung over and observed from a choice corner) and demanded I use my intelligence for something. If I did not open my mouth, do something, say something, I would never change the world, she said. I was taken aback, she apologised the next day for being completely out of line, and I thought no more of it. Another fun story about the peculiar relationships a teacher's pet has with her teachers. But she had a point. I want to matter, to leave a mark. That will not happen if I go into hiding in a literature department somewhere.

Did I post about considering medicine and law? I've decided on law. It will be a challenge, and I am looking forward to it. Doing something demanding seems like a dream. School has never been very difficult, and while I did have good teachers, being offered more assignments of the same kind does not cure boredom (I will not get into the failings of the Norwegian schools). This final year of English literature I plan to take on as little credit as possible, teach myself rudimentary Russian, work, read, exercise and travel.

Comments

[amphitritie.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you've at least got a plan and CARE about the world both of which are very important and admirable. I'm not out of high schook, but chose medicine over the easier lit studies route. Maybe there are other career possibilities out there other than the two you listed. If you really want to do something in the world maybe a foundation or other Non Goverment Organizations that might even offer field work.

I might be pushing it a bit much, because that's the path my parents chose, but all I'm saying is from what I know of law (little) it sounds likeit is like the person above me said. Try looking elsewhere first.

Good luck! I'll get off my high horse now.

[nirinia.livejournal.com]

Oh, there are likely endless career possiblities. I've just narrowed my interests down to those two particular educations, and I think I've finally decided on law. I wouldn't necessarily need to practice law, but it is a very good starting point.

I don't think I could ever do an NGO, even though the intentions are honourable. Other than perhaps for a very short while. Thank you, I think I'll need all the lcuk and crossed fingers I can get.